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DEATH BY NAME
06:03
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LOOK AT ME
SEE FUCKING NOTHING
PIGS ON A SKEWER
ROASTING END TO END
DEATH BY NAME
DON'T YOU KNOW ME
SEE THE ROPE
A SELF INDUCED NOOSE
IT'S ALL I AM
ALL I CAN SEE
DEATH BY NAME
WATCH IT GO AWAY
IN A SEWER PIPE
I LAY MY PLANS
IF I AM CAUGHT
THEY MADE A MARTYR
I BUILD MY ARMS
UNTIL I AM GONE
IT'S EASIER
THAN YOU'D THINK
SIXTEEN YEARS
AND FUCKING NOTHING
THEY WILL SEE
WHAT TO MAKE OF ME
DEATH BY NAME
DON'T YOU KNOW ME
DEATH BY NAME
WATCH IT GO AWAY
LAST MINUTE REGRETS
IF I WAS BRAVE
THEN DEATH WOULD
BE MY NAME
ON THE ROAD
NO RETURN
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THOUGHTS
04:54
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I FUCKING HATE HOW I FEEL
THIS HAS BROUGHT ME TO MY DEATH KNEEL
I WANT TO RIP OUT MY HEART
TAKE A GUN AND BLOW AWAY MY THOUGHTS
DEEP INSIDE I DON'T MATTER
SO I MAKE MY LIFE SADDER
THERE IS NO LIGHT IN MY TUNNEL
EVERY GOOD THING WILL BE NULL
AMBITION ISN'T ALL I LACK
YOUR BLOOD IS RED BUT MY VEINS ARE BLACK
I WANT TO GOUGE OUT MY EYES
SCREAM AND RIP OUT MY INSIDES
I NEED TO BITE OFF MY TONGUE
AND LET THE BLOOD FLOW TO MY LUNGS
RETURN MY BODY TO THE GROUND
I WILL GO WITHOUT A SOUND
I'M SO COLD
AND I'M SOBER
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ONCOMING TRAFFIC
07:24
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I WALK ALONE IN CROWDS
JUST ANOTHER FACE, NOBODY AROUND
I’M UNREMARKABLE IN EVERY WAY
MY RIGID SCHEDULE OF NOTHING KEEPS ME BUSY
MY LIFE IS AS BORING AS IT NORMAL
I WALK UNKNOWN IN CROWDS
BUT THEN AT NIGHT I DRIVE ALONE
WITH MY HEADLIGHTS OFF
LOOKING FOR ONCOMING TRAFFIC
I DON’T KNOW WHAT I’M DOING, BUT I DO IT EVERY NIGHT
I DON’T KNOW WHAT I’M LOOKING FOR OR WHAT I WANT TO DO
I JUST KNOW THAT I FEEL SOMETHING
BUT THEN DURING THE DAY I AM ORDINARY
I TALK TO PEOPLE AND THEY DON’T REMEMBER ME
I FEEL LIKE I HAVEN’T LIVED IN YEARS
EVERY DAY IT GETS WORSE
BUT BIT BY BIT, BIT BY BIT
MY IMAGINATION TAKES OVER ME
AND THEN AT NIGHT I DRIVE ALONE
AND I DON’T KNOW WHERE I AM GOING
I DRIVE INTO ONCOMING TRAFFIC WITH MY HEADLIGHTS OFF
SCREAMING, I’M SCREAMING
BLOOD IS RUSHING TO MY HEAD
I WANT TO FUCKING DIE
I WAKE UP IN THE HOSPITAL
THEY TELL ME I WAS IN A CAR CRASH
I BROKE BOTH OF MY LEGS AND I HAVE INTERNAL BLEEDING
THEY SAY I WAS LUCKY
BECAUSE THE OTHER CAR IN THE CRASH HAD FOUR PASSENGERS
AND NONE OF THEM SURVIVED
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DRILL
04:24
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DRILL MY BRAIN
TAKE TAKE THESE THOUGHTS AWAY FROM ME
END MY LIFE
MAYBE THEN, I WILL SEE
DRILL MY BRAIN
KILL MY BRAIN
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NOBODY AROUND
02:54
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MOROSE AND MEAN
UNFILTERED CIGARETTES
GIVING ME CANCER
DIRTY AND PERVERTED
SEX WITHOUT FUCKING
GRIME ON TOP OF GRIME
SUCKING MY AIR
ENTITLED AND BRAINWASHED
NERVOUS AND PARANOID
SHADOWS FOLLOW ME
AND I CAN’T SEE FACES
FRUSTRATED AND CASTRATED
LIVING SOMEONE ELSE’S LIFE
I’M OUT OF MY MIND
PAIN AND JEALOUSY
NOBODY AROUND
SHE’S DEAD IN THE GROUND
THEY’RE SCANNING MY THOUGHTS
WATCHING EVERY TWITCH
OUT OF THE SHADOWS
PAIN ON TOP OF PAIN
GIVE ME CANCER
NOBODY AROUND
DISARMED AND SHOUTING
NOBODY AROUND
UNFILTERED AND UNFULFILLED
NOBODY AROUND
HURT AND HATED
NOBODY AROUND
NOISY AND NUMB
NOBODY AROUND
HARSH LIFE AND UNCERTAIN DEATH
NOBODY AROUND
NOBODY AROUND
I’M DEAD IN THE GROUND
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REGRET
08:02
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I DON’T KNOW WHY BUT I HEADED TO THE BEACH
I GUESS THIS IS WHERE I FELT SAFE AS A CHILD
I NEEDED SOMEPLACE TO FORGET ABOUT EVERYTHING
AND IT DIDN’T WORK
THE WAVES CAME CRASHING IN AND MY THOUGHTS KEPT GOING TO HER
WHY DIDN’T SHE WANT ME, WHY DIDN’T SHE LOVE ME?
THE WIND WAS BLOWING TOWARDS ME AND I DECIDED TO TAKE ACTION
I AM GOING TO CHANGE MY LIFE FOR THE BETTER
SO I WENT BACK INTO TOWN AND CONFRONTED HER
FOR THE SECOND TIME, SHE DENIED ME
EVERYONE AROUND ME SAID I HAD IT COMING
THAT I GET OBSESSED TOO EASILY
THAT MAYBE I JUST NEED TO GO AWAY FROM HER
I DECIDED THAT I AM GOING TO TAKE ACTION
I NEED TO LEAVE EVERYTHING BEHIND
SO I TRAVEL WITH NO DESTINATION IN MIND
I FIND MYSELF IN THE DESERT
I PLAN TO DIE OUT HERE
STARVATION, THIRST, WHATEVER IT TAKES
FOR DAYS I WALK, WAITING FOR SOMETHING TO COME OVER ME
I DON’T SEE ANOTHER HUMAN FOR WEEKS
THEN ONE NIGHT I COME ACROSS SOME TOURISTS
THEY’RE SITTING AROUND A CAMPFIRE, ENJOYING LIFE
I GO UP TO THEM, AND THEY HAND ME SOMETHING TO SMOKE
I TAKE IT, AND SUDDENLY EVERYTHING BECAME COLORFUL
EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE STARTED TO MAKE SENSE
I BECAME FOCUSED AND I REGAINED MY ENERGY
I DECIDED THAT I AM GOING TO CHANGE MY LIFE
AND AFTER FIVE DAYS OF NOT SLEEPING
I HEAD, I HEAD
I HEAD INTO A GUN SHOP
I HEAD INTO A GUN SHOP AND BUY A SEMI-AUTOMATIC RIFLE
I FELT POWER, REAL POWER
SO THEN I HEAD I HEAD I HEAD
I HEAD TO THE LOCAL TOWN, WITH MY SEMIAUTOMATIC RIFLE, AND I START SHOOTING, AND EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE MAKES SENSE, AND I FEEL FULFILLED, AND I FEEL POWER, REAL POWER, AND THEY’RE SCREAMING AND I’M SCREAMING AND OH GOD, THE BLOOD AND THE SCREAMING OH GOD WHAT THE FUCK HAVE I DONE
WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO
I PANIC HOW THE FUCK COULD I DO THIS
GUILT STRICKEN I RUN
I RUN AS FAR AWAY AS I CAN
I RUN AT NIGHT AND HIDE DURING THE DAY
LIVING OFF MY ENVIRONMENT
THEY’LL NEVER CATCH ME IN THE WILDERNESS
BUT MY THOUGHTS DO
IN THE WOODS, I FIND AN EMPTY CABIN
I NEED TO BE ISOLATED FROM THE REST OF THE WORLD
I NEED TO LIVE IN PAIN AND PUNISHMENT
THIS IS WHERE I DECIDED I NEEDED TO END MY LIFE
I NEED TO PAY FOR WHAT I’VE DONE
I NEED TO PAY FOR WHAT I’VE DONE
I NEED TO PAY FOR WHAT I’VE DONE
I DECIDED I AM GOING TO TAKE ACTION AND I PUT THE GUN IN MY MOUTH, AND PULL THE TRIGGER, AND I THOUGHT THAT WOULD BE THE END, THE END OF MY MISERABLE LIFE
BUT IT WASN’T
THEN I SAW MY OWN BODY
I DIDN’T KNOW THIS IS WHAT DEATH WOULD BE LIKE
I SEE MYSELF, I’M FLOATING ABOVE MY BODY, THEN I’M FLOATING ABOVE THE CABIN, AND I’M FLOATING ABOVE THE WOODS
BEING PULLED IN SOME UNKNOWN DIRECTION
FORCIBLY GUIDED
WHERE AM I GOING
WE GO TO THE HOUSE I GREW UP IN
THAT’S WHERE I LEARNED I COULDN’T CONTROL MY LIFE
THEN WE GO TO MY DAD’S HOUSE AFTER MY PARENT’S DIVORCE
THAT’S WHERE I LEARNED HOW TO HATE
THEN WE WENT TO MY HIGH SCHOOL
THAT’S WHERE I LEARNED HOW TO BE ALONE
THEN WE WENT TO HER APARTMENT
THAT’S WHERE I LEARNED I WOULD NEVER AMOUNT TO ANYTHING
THEN I WENT TO MY CRIME SCENE
WHAT THE FUCK EVEN HAPPENED
THEN I WENT TO THE CABIN WHERE I DIED
AND THE CYCLE BEGAN OVER AGAIN
I SEE MYSELF, MY YOUNGER SELF IN ALL THESE PLACES
ALL THESE MEMORIES COME FLOWING ALL AT ONCE
IT’S NOT WHAT I WANT TO SEE
AND DEEP INSIDE, I FEEL THIS REGRET
DEEP INSIDE, I FEEL THIS REGRET
EVERY PAINFUL MEMORY, EVERYTHING I EVER DID THAT HURT SOMEONE
THEY COME OVER AND OVER AGAIN
ALL AT ONCE, OVER AGAIN
ALL AT ONCE, OVER AGAIN
ALL AT ONCE, OVER AGAIN
ALL AT ONCE, OVER AND OVER
FOR ALL OF ETERNITY
AND THEN
AND THEN
AND THEN
NOTHING
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